Artificial Intelligence
Listen, I was doing AI way before it was cool.
For as long as I can remember, the stresses of life triggered the devil's designed algorithms that sparked some pretty sinister storytelling in my mind.
These stories simulated some form of intelligent behavior, giving me the feeling that I was wise, preparing for the worst.
I thought I was so smart.
I spent too many mornings in the shower playing out vicious virtual reality scenes that gave me a false sense of power and control.
I was angry and upset before I even rinsed off my shampoo.
Scheming up the worst-case scenarios kept my expectations low so I wouldn't be disappointed. It also allowed me to plan a response if an attack came.
How many hours have I wasted playing out sinister stories that never came to be?
Too many. FAR too many.
I was in a consistent state of disaster preparation.
I thought I was protecting myself from harm, which I suppose sometimes I did.
But, most often, I was in a virtual flight or fight mode for things that would never come to be in the real world.
Artificial intelligence is a fake simulation. Sometimes it's right; sometimes, it's wrong.
I imagine God sitting in a chair, patiently twiddling His thumbs, anxiously waiting for me to stop all the nonsense.
God's intelligence - now that is the real thing.
Knowing this has made me realize I need serious internal modifications.
When I hear that inner chatbot in my mind revving up, ready to blast me into a fake future of awfulness, I am rerouting the conversation with these words:
God will guide and provide what I need to make it through.
I lock eyes with my savior, the one who rescued me from the poopy pit of despair. The God who created everything and loves me for who I am knows what has happened and what will happen.
I cry out to Him for wisdom and clarity, trusting that He is going to work it all out and that He will equip me with what I need to fight any battle or solve any problem that comes my way.
Nothing is impossible with God.
Nothing is too hard for Him to figure out.
Why waste my time trying to play it all out in some made-up scenario that probably won't ever happen?
Seems silly, doesn't it?
No more artificial intelligence for this girl. I'm leaning on the that all knowing-God who loves me and wants the best for me.
God is the real deal, and I am going to keep working on turning off the virtual reality, trusting Him to do the impossible and figure it all out while I let my mind focus on the here and now.
God will guide and provide what I need to make it through.
No matter what I face, God is going to repurpose it for my good.
It's time for me to relax and quiet my mind.
Besides, I have some serious conditioning to do. This humidity is doing a number on my hair.
Jeremiah 32:17
Ah, Sovereign Lord , you have made the heavens and the earth by your great power and outstretched arm. Nothing is too hard for you.
Isaiah 40:28
Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom.
Revelations 19:6
Then I heard what sounded like a great multitude, like the roar of rushing waters and like loud peals of thunder, shouting: "Hallelujah! For our Lord God Almighty reigns.